Tuesday, November 13, 2012

America Eh?

Finally I'm here in United States, two months I have struggled in this country, studying and working at the same time
Well, one thing that crossed my mind these days, if most missionaries were coming from here, why is it so hard to find christian in my campus
Most people idolize themselves and what they have: money, fancy cars, fancy clothing, and their star idol
This reminds me a lot while I was in China
So many people that has not been saved
but the different is.... people here are free to go to church
They don't have to worry about persecution, but yet they don't care
It saddens me a lot

So, my other job here, not only to study and work, but also to pray
This country needs God more then ever
Children are not allowed to pray in school anymore
Same-sex marriage and abortion are allowed and more to come....

Matthew 13:49
So it will be at the close of the age. The angels will come out and separate the evil from the righteous

What I can get from here is towards the end of the age, the right people, God's people will be differed clearer with worldly people. We will stand still while the rest are getting far from God. More opportunity for us to shine in darker place

But it comes with more consequences and challenges. How can we approach them? How can we bring them to God? As human, I could not think of any way to work it out. But there's one way

1 Timothy 5:5
She who is truly a widow, left all alone, has set her hope on God and continues in supplications and prayers night and day

Let we communicate with God night and day, pray throughout your day, pray before you meet people, let Holy spirit works in you. Because our mind is limited but He is the infinitive. One thing is do you have the heart to see people to be saved or you want to stay safe?

Work your salvation!
Philippians 2:12-13
Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, so now, not only as in my presence but much more in my absence, work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure

I was thinking before, why God told me to America this time while there are lots of Christian here. now it's beed revealed part by part, how he love this nation a lot and I hope I can be used in His work here.

God Bless America - San Francisco, California

Sunday, June 10, 2012

life, how are you?

It's been a long time since I updated things
Life.... ups and downs everyday
New people come
Old people go
Life always like that

It's been a pretty constant year for me
working at office everyday
serving at church on sundays
working out every other night
going somewhere with friends or family on the weekend
it happened pretty similar every week

This 2 semester I'm struggling with some biggest issues in my life
trying to pretend that they don't exist
but so funny that the problems are still there
I don't know what will it be and as you know that I might leave Indonesia in 2 months
I realized that I'm feeling anxious, afraid of the circumstances

Regardless all of that, I thank God for another lesson this stage of life, about how to surrender
God has put plans, perfect plans for each of us, in specific way
While we do his will, God settles other things beyond our capacity

So then, I'm waiting for the decision for my master degree this Friday/Saturday
Whatever the result, God knows the best for me
Actually there are more to say now
but you can say it is an indication for more posts to come, been to lazy to write these days 


Wednesday, November 23, 2011


In one mall near to my home, there is an exhibition of famous people's pictures made by a single man
He hung it all across the basement floor
As today I went home from there and saw the pictures, I was thinking about having my picture between all the celebrated people
I want to be known as someone who are counted in this world
but that's so random

As I went to Hollywood a few years ago, I was astounded by all the stars on the walk of fame
But something that perplexing me was all the names sculpted on the stars are unknown to me.
They might be movie stars, singers, or directors from long time ago but they became infamous for new generation people

who's Jerry Lewis?

The pro:

Sometimes, we do need the faith that sometime we will be someone who participate in changing the world to be a better place. Someone who can influence people becoming into great leaders. Because every leader starts from a dream, faith, and correct actions.

The con:
Do we concentrated that much in this world that we need to be something instead of becoming God's something. We don't have to be famous or reknown so that we can influence people. God can work in each of us, in every state and every realm.

Micah 4:5
All the nations may walk in the name of their gods; We will walk in the LORD our God for ever and ever

So, it's my thought of the day, what do you think?

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Hey, great news

Dear friends,

Have you ever wait for a news, whether it is your exam result or response from you crush?
Well, you basically you never know for sure what is the waiting for you, right?

As this week I read The book of Jonah I found an interesting point, NEWS. It is not what you watch everyday on TV during your dinner together with your family, no, it is something more enermous than that.

In Hebrew, Jonah means dove. What is it in your mind when you heard that kind of bird? Sure it is, NEWS. People in the past used it as a sole communication media to send message or news to people in distant. Do you remember that God told him to go to Nineveh to send the good news from God. But what did he do back then? He ran away, He kept the message for himself rather than share it with people.

And you know what, we have the good news also and God not randomly chose people

Jonah 1:1
The word of the Lord came to Jonah son of Amittai: " Go to the great city of Nineveh and preach against it, because its wickedness has come up before me. "

Do you think God accidentally chose Jonah and let him go just like that? No! He is being faithful for him and He knows that he is capable for accomplishing that.

In world, we oftenly had the opportunity to give good news for people. We are so excited because we know that the people who we are about to inform is about to get the extreme happiness.

And now, God entrusting us with the GREATEST NEWS ever in this world, the salvation! and where are we right now? Did we hide it under our bed or did you give it to your friend because you thought that you were not good enough? He has chosen you because He believed in you and He himself is in you to make sure you are ready to bear all things.

" Therefore Go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of The Father and The Son, and The Holy Spirit"

So, go and spread the good news, but be careful.... The whale are watching!


with Love,


Monday, November 7, 2011


It has been almost half a year since the last time I blogged and now I work at a multilevel marketing, time goes on, doesn't it?
I am back to lovely town, Jakarta
Met my parents and dear friends
Reconnected with the church here
met new brothers and sisters


Monday, yes today is Monday
I started the day, drove my parents to their friend's house as they went to Thailand today
It is quiet at home today and suddenly I missed TV sound and my dad's playing nintendo DS after a tiring day
I'm being such a melancholist today

continuing the day
I felt so sick today, like there are babies inside my stomach kicking out
Well, tensions happened today
Intimidation, prejudice, demeaning words
All eyes looked down on me, everywhere....
My other side said that the world hate me today
Just get out, refrain and free yourself
There were things coming out from my head

What I love about my God is His faithfulness to all His children
He knows that when I'm alone, it's easy for me to compromise
I went to the gym today, joined body combat class and trying to let loose the emotion
Whom should I punch or strike?
The one whom should I hit is myself
To remind that there is nothing that can soothe me, except Him

Sometimes I love the moment when I am alone
I don't have to think about anything, God enters my mind easily
He just said simple things about life
World will never be your friend, but how you respond that matters
How you would nod to people who yell at you
How you smile to those denigrating eyes
How you say I love you when they say I hate you
Everything is beautiful if you could see it from His eyes

So am I ready for tomorrow?
No, but God said YES Denny!
I won't be there physically, just spend little space for me in your heart and I will bless your day

They said I am being too nice to be a working people
but wouldn't it be good if everybody fell the same way?
I am not going to change
Back to my life verse

Romans 12:2
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed bythe renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect

smile even the world give you a dam*

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

missing something

I miss something precious in my life lately

They way it hit me gently and lastly it soothed

I miss it so much, I miss being REBUKED

I'm so happy that I was reminded about being a nice person

but the way it was exposed and how they are playing with their proud in it

made me....broke

So grateful that I have Him, who taught me to forgive and apply love to whoever they are

me myself is not a perfect person

it's hard for me to be better if there are no one beside me who wants me to be a better person

make it worst if they talked about you with your absence

Ecclesiastes 4:10
For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow
But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up

humbly I said

"Oh God I need your help
Thank you for the people who was there for me
cared about me and wanted me to be a better person
but now I'm alone
just a simple request
for me to learn more from your people
so that I can bless more"

Monday, April 25, 2011

the greatest story in your life

We just celebrated easter yesterday and hope that our spirit might not die out
God has risen and He will accompany us till the end of time

This time I am not emphasizing on that point
it is days before that
How God suffered, but once again I am not stressing on his suffering
I want us to do some flashbacks and let's discuss

One point about yesterday's sermon which penetrate into my deepest understanding
A story about a girl who gave all her attentions, financially and emotionally towards her sister and lastly.... She got the opposite things from her, disappointment and rejection
How broke she was
but one thing about that, she got a privilege, to experience what God has felt on the cross

On the way to the cavalry, God hold the heaviest burden ever
not only the pain, but He brought all the sins, the present and the future on His back
and what worst.... Father left Him for being full of sin
He was doing that all for you and like what the girl felt, disappointment and rejection
but He is 100% human but also 100% God who has the truest respond
He brought it all to the cross and present it all to Father

Now..... Let us think about our life lately
How we really crave for acknowledgement and hope that people might do the same thing for what you have done
When you don't get what you expect
You feel sad and disappointed, finally you failed to apply unconditional love
too bad man!

one thing about investment and sacrifice
till now you have been investing your time, your money, and your attention towards people
and you feel that it's enough to make them happy, to feel the Godly love in you
I said NO!
There are the second level which I have mentioned before, sacrifice...
still, you give the same thing: time, money, and attention
but you erase the "I" factor in it
You give your money even though you're in a hard financial condition
You give your time even though you're time is so limited, there are more works to do
but you sincerely give it all
with one prayer, so that His name glorified

So, are ready to feel the greatest story ever in your life?
prepare your heart and God will open the door of opportunity to you
as return, He'll give you blessings and everlasting love
for you are focusing on Him and let Him focus on you

Happy easter