Papa, I'm back

It's been a 'busy' month for me

to hang around with friends everyday

to stay in front of my laptop till I got slept

to work out in the gym every evening

and the question, what is my aim here?

to get as many friends that I can get?

to be a computer master?

to be a muscle man?

yeah, maybe I can get those things if I do it routinely

but! God ask me, "Where is My portion?"

and I silencely bow down and cry

Today, as I walked at the main road once again, I saw sea of fishes

I saw that they are lost and nowhere to go

and I keep my net in my safety box because I was too busy playing with my computer, doing exercise in the gym even to study all the time

my idol is not Him anymore, it's my routinity, it's my text books, it's my laptop, it's money, and everything that keep me far from Him

You shall not worship them or serve them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God” (Exodus 20:4-5)

Yes it is, He is a jealous God and I don't want to be far from Him longer than this, because I don't have any strength, humility, patience to face the world

I'm just a mere human with all the weaknesses

and now, I just want to say,"Papa, I'm back"

Luke 15:20

So he got up and went to his father. "But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

Hmmmmm....

This time I don't really know what to write

My life is tasteless these days, eventhough more laughs and more fun here than in Jakarta

but there's something missing

something really special missing here in GZ

Most of my friends here are pre-christians, approx 80% of them

and that is exactly what I miss, COMMUNITY

Day by day my life filled with study, culinary, and shopping

there is nothing much I can learn here

I was wondering when I was still in Indonesia that I could learn many new things about my God here in China

it's almost 1 month here and nothing really special

anything applied here are the things that I have learned before

I really don't want to walk in the same place over and over again

I have a need to learn more

I need people beside me to strengthen each other

and the last thing is I don't want to waste what I have learnt before

Well I shall not stand there and wait, I have to act something that I have believed

I believe that I'll found one and hope that I got the chance to serve Him even here in GZ

I miss my community so much, I miss my family and I miss my 'family' =]

thanks for the prayers, it has been pillars of my life here