Promise

It was a great month for me and now we're facing something really bad

BANKRUPTCY

yeah, last month after becoming a tour leader for newcomer

need to go somewhere they have never been before, sheet by sheet of my money spent on something I've been experienced before

Somehow, when I meet Him, I felt something different

I tried so many time to save some money on my wallet and I failed

I always ended up spending a lot

I spoke to God, how should I do, even my tuition money has been used for covering all of it

and He only said this

Dear my loyal son, you don't need to worry what is it in the world, what should you eat and what should you wear, because you can never imagine what I have in the universe

You have been good with me and let me share to you what I have to provide all you need

days by days I've waited, countless calculation I've done to see how much I got left

didn't give up to believe what He said to me before

and suddenly my mother sent me message that said I've transferred this amount of money from Chinese new year

well, it's a lot for me, saved my finance situation a lot here

but, His work didn't stop there....

the next day my mom sent me another message saying that she transferred more money from again... the Chinese new year

if we sum up all of it, it could be the most money I got from Chinese new year

even though I doubt it at first because I'm here in China without my presence in Indonesia

and that's it.... Oh, I forgot something

the next day my father called and said he would send me more money to pay the tuition

let's recall

I said before that I have used my tuition money to cover my deficiency here

and then he'll send me more for it

well I remember something from the Words

Isaiah 48:17-18

Thus says the Lord,

Your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel:

"I am the Lord your God,

who teacher you to profit, who leads you in the way you should go.

Oh that you had paid attention to my commandments!

Then your peace would have been like a river,

and your righteousness like the waves of the sea

God has given you promises but there are some tasks that you have to do, to be loyal and humble to Him, then everything will be provided well from Him, because He knows what's best for you! yes, each of you!

a reminder

*I think it's time for me to do small update than giving big update but in random, unexpected times

well, today the same topic came into my mind, about my education and about what am I going to do in my future life

I'm enjoying the day today, watch the newest season of American Idol after one long downloading night and I started with episode 01 - audition in New Jersey

as what I expected as usual, there are people who desperately wanted to go to Hollywood so that he/she could continue the process of becoming an idol

some of them will continue as the judges love their voices and personality and some of them went home, leaving all the dream behind

I point on one girl, 16 years old girl with a good voice

She's counting her age until she could manage to join the American Idol contest and she recorded every special moments till she entered the judges room and finally she got her golden ticket

is there anything special? yes, from my point of view

the last statement from her," this is my time to shine and I'm 16"

there are two "I" points here which show self-centered

time to shine and lastly she stated the young age as self-glorification

well, the judges finally approved her talent and let her move on

See from other contestant, another 16 year old boy named Travis Orlando with smooth voice from Bronx, my favorite kind of voice

It was started with a story about his family and how they survived during the past years and this might be hope for them

then he sang two songs which made them impressed

after the good news, all of his family got into the judging room and praised God

last statement from him

"we've been down as a family altogether but I really wanna do this for them and prove to other people that everyone can do this"

and we got values here

1. to be grateful for anything

2. love one and another as a family

3. other-people-centered life

So what's the correlation with me this time?

well, nothing actually

but no... after watching American Idol this time, I got to be reminded about what's my purpose of life, what's God's promise for me and how to be humbled and surrender wholly to him

and thinking about my future, I'm starting my IBT training today, thanks to the internet

so, that's how you suppose to watch the Idol =D