not power, just humbling

We are forgiven not because we are making sin, but because we are sinners. I am a sinner, you are a sinner, we are all sinners. These previous days God really put me in a situation where I am in humanly existence can do sin in so many ways, but that's what you call self-centered life once again. I failed in one of my important tests towards my dream education. However, that time God really taught me two ways oh humbling yourself:

1. You're not suppose to be sad, you're suppose to be grateful

an act of being grateful makes you become such a humbling person. It is self denial. Well, I have the option to be sad, to bang my head towards the wall and so on, but I chose to be grateful. I don't want to be sad because that means I'm sad because I can't achieve MY dream. I emphasize the "I" factor in it. I'm being so proud of my own strength and wisdom, then when I fell, I felt so disappointed on myself. God knows more than I do, so by not giving me the chance to pass that tests, He could give me something new to tell, and I just got it.

Jeremiah 17:5

Thus says the Lord:

"Cursed is the man who trusts in man and makes flesh his strength, whose heart turns away from the Lord"

2. You can't avoid sin, you know you can't

When I think about sin, I'm thinking about something that I should avoid, something that I can escape from, but actually no! We're human and we still covered by our flesh, that's why we are all sinners. The only way to deal with sin is to be humble. We should realize that we are strength-less towards sin and only God that has the power for us to handle with it. I still remember about the analogy from a book about a person who can't swim. The first time he fell to the water, he'll use his own strength to keep on the surface, but at the same time, the rescuer doesn't have the opportunity to help him, because the one who can't swim has enough strength to beat him. So he'll wait until the almost-sink person to relax a bit and start helping him. The same with us, if we say, we could handle the sin by ourself, God won't help us and that's when we fell for the hundredth times. so just pray to him, I know I'm weak, I can't handle sin by myself and let His power help you through that.

Well, I am also not a perfect person, the same person who keep on learning how to be a humble person. We need a person who knows that all and really understand how it is hard to be humble then start your accountability with him, then you'll see why we all need it.