Promise

It was a great month for me and now we're facing something really bad

BANKRUPTCY

yeah, last month after becoming a tour leader for newcomer

need to go somewhere they have never been before, sheet by sheet of my money spent on something I've been experienced before

Somehow, when I meet Him, I felt something different

I tried so many time to save some money on my wallet and I failed

I always ended up spending a lot

I spoke to God, how should I do, even my tuition money has been used for covering all of it

and He only said this

Dear my loyal son, you don't need to worry what is it in the world, what should you eat and what should you wear, because you can never imagine what I have in the universe

You have been good with me and let me share to you what I have to provide all you need

days by days I've waited, countless calculation I've done to see how much I got left

didn't give up to believe what He said to me before

and suddenly my mother sent me message that said I've transferred this amount of money from Chinese new year

well, it's a lot for me, saved my finance situation a lot here

but, His work didn't stop there....

the next day my mom sent me another message saying that she transferred more money from again... the Chinese new year

if we sum up all of it, it could be the most money I got from Chinese new year

even though I doubt it at first because I'm here in China without my presence in Indonesia

and that's it.... Oh, I forgot something

the next day my father called and said he would send me more money to pay the tuition

let's recall

I said before that I have used my tuition money to cover my deficiency here

and then he'll send me more for it

well I remember something from the Words

Isaiah 48:17-18

Thus says the Lord,

Your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel:

"I am the Lord your God,

who teacher you to profit, who leads you in the way you should go.

Oh that you had paid attention to my commandments!

Then your peace would have been like a river,

and your righteousness like the waves of the sea

God has given you promises but there are some tasks that you have to do, to be loyal and humble to Him, then everything will be provided well from Him, because He knows what's best for you! yes, each of you!

a reminder

*I think it's time for me to do small update than giving big update but in random, unexpected times

well, today the same topic came into my mind, about my education and about what am I going to do in my future life

I'm enjoying the day today, watch the newest season of American Idol after one long downloading night and I started with episode 01 - audition in New Jersey

as what I expected as usual, there are people who desperately wanted to go to Hollywood so that he/she could continue the process of becoming an idol

some of them will continue as the judges love their voices and personality and some of them went home, leaving all the dream behind

I point on one girl, 16 years old girl with a good voice

She's counting her age until she could manage to join the American Idol contest and she recorded every special moments till she entered the judges room and finally she got her golden ticket

is there anything special? yes, from my point of view

the last statement from her," this is my time to shine and I'm 16"

there are two "I" points here which show self-centered

time to shine and lastly she stated the young age as self-glorification

well, the judges finally approved her talent and let her move on

See from other contestant, another 16 year old boy named Travis Orlando with smooth voice from Bronx, my favorite kind of voice

It was started with a story about his family and how they survived during the past years and this might be hope for them

then he sang two songs which made them impressed

after the good news, all of his family got into the judging room and praised God

last statement from him

"we've been down as a family altogether but I really wanna do this for them and prove to other people that everyone can do this"

and we got values here

1. to be grateful for anything

2. love one and another as a family

3. other-people-centered life

So what's the correlation with me this time?

well, nothing actually

but no... after watching American Idol this time, I got to be reminded about what's my purpose of life, what's God's promise for me and how to be humbled and surrender wholly to him

and thinking about my future, I'm starting my IBT training today, thanks to the internet

so, that's how you suppose to watch the Idol =D

I'm fine

Like the title above, I am fine

It's been long since I wrote the last post and here I am in the cold winter of guangzhou without heater, struggling to wake up early for winter class everyday

I'm fine at least I'm trying to be fine

yeah, recently we just passed 2010 and now we are in 2011

of course I have my own goal set and resolution this year

but the difference for this year is I wrote what should I do to achieve that

not just saying what will I get this year but how am I suppose to do to get that

and now, pursuing what I'm about to get this year (full of faith mode)

there are so many obstacles in front of me trying to put me down

till now I'm trying so many alternatives I could get so that I can get into the next point

tired? Yes, absolutely tired

from my point of view everything is impossible right now, don't know what to do, don't know who to ask, don't know where to go

just praying to God so that the alternative way may appear

just keep being faithful and loyal to Him

I just want to say that, to believe Jesus is easy but to follow Him, it's challenging

I'll pray whoever read this, you who are struggling to achieve something or praying for something, that you may be strong, stand firm in your faith and keep believing.

Don't just dream it, but live it!

(for the sake of His kingdom)

I lose so that I can win

There are surely so many types of people in this world

Even I'm still learning to know more about it

Simply there are 4 types of characteristic, which are

choleric

likes to order food while everybody is complaining about their stomach

phlegmatic

likes to eat and serve alone

Melancholic

tend to be sad after finished eating in an expensive all-you-can-eat restaurant

Sanguine

love his own world, even in a restaurant --''

Well, I'm not talking about those characteristic this time (*wasting time posting pictures)

I'm kind of talking about humility

yes, what's the relationship then?

Like what I have mentioned before, there are so many types of people

and the kind of people that I recently met are those who are debatable or arguable

well, it's good sometimes to meet them

we can get more informations and more knowledges about almost anything

but sometimes, we can compare them to wikipedia, yes it is

WHY?

Because no matter how false the information, the lack of citation and so many other things

YOU CAN'T CHANGE IT

they are the sole source for most people who don't want to search for more reliable information

imagine people like that.....

You have tried your best to convince him that you know and even you have experienced the things that you explained

but still, he doesn't want to know

eventhough he has the wrong information

he doesn't care and stand still on his perception

I used to join debate competition in my high school years

in the competition, whether we are pro or contra

there is one rule that prohibit us to relate the argument that we give to religion

"every concept of the world has flaw, but His words are solid, like His presence"

So, how do we handle these guys?

there is only one word, HUMILITY

When there's still will inside of you that says," I cannot lose to a like of him "

and trying to win the argue, you're hiding the proud inside of you

because when you humble yourself, you can lose and sometimes you can win

but when you lost, you didn't really lose

you win..... against you pride

2 philippians 2:3

Do nothing from selfishness or conceit, but in humility counts other better than yourselves

the link

It's been 2 and a half months since I left and there are a lot of things in my mind lately, I.....

miss the moments when we study together

miss the moments when we can laugh together

miss the moments when we can pray together

miss the new year's eve together with you guys

miss the moments when we can all-out together for God as a church

miss the moment when I was about to be born again

miss the moments when we can get tired and get fun together

miss the moments when we share things....

I love you all guys, we may afar as flesh but we're connected as mind, as prayers of GOD

I might not know about you guys lately

I cannot be there to support you, cannot laugh together as you succeed

I pray that as soon as we meet again

I can say

Thanks God for you, yes YOU!

hugs,

=Denny Saputra=

a simple statement

Today is the day when the temperature is getting lower

Today is the day when I first saw police in the dorm

Today is the day when all his belongings robbed

Today is the day when he smiled and said:

"eventhough I lost almost everything but I feel grateful that I can see you all today"

nothing is free for me

Like usual, yesterday I went back from gym through the long way behind the campus

and suddenly there were this couple in their middle age

They called me and the husband talked so fast *yeah in mandarin of course

and I heard "huadu" and "wo men yao hui jia"

huadu: a place near guangzhou, approx. 2 hours driving; wo men yao hui jia: we want to go home

Well surely I told them the way to the train station

but they didn't care about that

finally they said "qian" and suddenly there's yelling "BAH!" in my mind

I said I was student and I have limited money to give

and then they said 4 kuai for both of us *total 8 kuai

1 kuai: 1350 Rupiah or 0.7 USD

I opened my wallet and gave my 10 kuai to them

then we went in separate ways

Well, the story ended there

yes, the story ended there but not for me

there is nothing free for anyone of you who took my money away

They have to give me something, but what?

a chance for me to pray for them

When I saw them, they surely were ran out of money

well, I didn't know why

They looked so tired and didn't know what to do but begging for other's money

well, my money maybe would get them back to their house, but how about their life?

I don't know what problem that they got, I only could pray after I walked away

a simple prayer to accompany them

well, I've forgot about this since I was here in China

a good friend of mine once told me about her praying habit

wherever she is, wherever she saw something that she could pray for, she prays

a great God's prayer she is

another great man of God from my previous university also told me about how he lives with God everytime

He said that imagine there's God beside you, when you walked through the way, when you drive your car, when you eat, when you are alone, anytime

There is no spare time for him, He talked with God when he was alone, imagine He is sitting right beside you

that's what I call relationship

Those two lifestyles, I called chained relationship with God

the more you do it, the stronger it will be

When you're alone and you thought that you couldn't stand your problem or the evil's temptation, just imagine He is standing next to you

keep telling you to stay strong because HE'S HERE

Psalm 23 : 4

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of the death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me; your rod and staff, they comfort me

When you're in a problem

on your way back, you keep grumbling and mumbling

when you're in a grief

you keep crying and pitying yourself

when you're in a happy occasion

you keep laughing and loving each other

We tend to forget God beside us

share your problem with Him, then He will help you get through it

He knows your grief, so hug him and He'll give you joy

share your happy moments with Him, then He will give you even more happiness

keep praying for your surrounding

keep your relationship with him to be stronger

be a God's soldier

=D