grateful

well, I can't say it's coincidence or not, but in my next IBT (Internet-Based TOEFL), I have to get excellent mark for my writing, higher than other part of the test. Well, eventhough I don't write here often, but at least it helps me to sharpen my writing skill. XP

I was sick 2 days ago, I couldn't sleep all night. I tried to sleep from 1-6 am and then I gave up, I told my dad that I wanted to go to hospital. I couldn't take the pain for any longer. It's hard for me to step the stairs and to walk to the doctor's house is another pain for me.

My heart said, "God help, God help, I couldn't stand this anymore, heal me, O, God!"

I know that God would heal me, but it needs time.

After I went back from the doctor's house, I continued my "sick journey" to Grand Indonesia, chessecake factory, having fun with my friends. I really want to forget about my sickness and go somewhere exciting.

I went home and I slept for 14 hours.

I woke up and I stepped on the same stairs and I was so surprised, I have been healed.

Well, I feel grateful at that time, very grateful to be healed by such sickness in instant.

I was thinking, yeah, people rarely feel grateful if they are in a hard situation.

There were no thought in my mind to be grateful to God for my sickness

so ashame that I see Job's gratefulness when he was in the hardest situation

People tend to complain more than be grateful

because the main point is still the same, you're focusing in yourself

When I was sick, I only thought about how can I be cured, so I pray to God

I didn't thank Him for me being sick but still having money to go to doctor and get the medicine

I didn't thank Him for me being sick and doesn't have any responsibility to do

well, it's only one case that I know and I realized

I have to be more sensitive to see this life, how I should be grateful for who I am and for who He is, so that I can be more humble

=D