my life is my life

I've thought some time in my life how bad my life is

to be compared with someone with more comfortable life

they can afford anything in this world

like their money won't be run out

or comparing with another family who has a christian background life

so it'll make them easier to go to church together, doesn't have to sneak just to go there

yea, I've been thinking about that and nothing's change

of course, why should I think about that

I have my own life

These days, I learned how to be grateful for my life

God has given me this hard life because He has a big plan in my life so that I can overcome it

so that I can learn many thing, so that I can rely on Him all the time, so that I can be grateful, because He loves me

to compare your life with other's life means that you're living in selfish life

you're focusing on yourself

you want your life to be better

envious

Luke 15:25-32
"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 'Your brother has come,' he replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.'

"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'

"My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.

but now, I realize that God really loves me, He put me in the position so that I can be used. He knows my capacity, the way I think and how would I act before I was born and He never got mistaken.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

-Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus-