out of the box

okay, another mind fight, a lot of thoughts, so complex, I was so confused so I couldn't think clearly.

I hate it when it comes to a day when I'm not productive, even I do nothing except facebook or tweetering about something useless.

I'm facing a problem, a problem that I always think for half of my university life.

I was so afraid to that point that I have to be brave to act and get out from it.

I have a big great enormous wall in front of me and I was challenged to go to the other side

now, the option is whether I stop thinking about it and surrender or I'm not thinking about the wall but thinking about another way to be there

That's what I was thinking, I surrendered and let it be, I'm thinking about how big and tall the wall is

It's so usual that I cannot fight my own problem and lost from it

but today I was thinking that I cannot be like this anymore

but still, what should I do

I want to ask for advices from someone, but each person that I ask was so busy and even there were who didn't even respond

but I think that's the way of Him

He didn't let me really rely on human

I was praying, at the beggining I was praying about how big the problem was and how I couldn't handle it.

I was praying so that the wall can be destroyed or moved, but I was wrong

God said to me at that time for me to pray about myself

I have to be strong so that I can beat the big wall

I was thinking out of the box at that time

I couldn't think well at that time because I was in the problem so that I couldn't observe well

so I took step back out of the box and see what could I do

1 Corrinthians 10: 13

No temptation has overtaken you that is unusual for human beings. But God is faithful, and he will not allow you to be tempted beyond your strength. Instead, along with the temptation he will also provide a way out, so that you may be able to endure it.

Once again, God let me be alone so that I could be stronger, rely on Him

He wanted me to be maximize, not to pity myself and wasting time

Now I walk on the line again, knowing that God will always help me through my hardships.

Romans 8:28

And we know that for those who love God, that is, for those who are called according to his purpose, all things are working together for good.